Funny thought of the night came when I realized my life has come to me changing the cat litter after 10 pm. This is how exciting a 30 something, mother of 2 life's is? Wow! Then I thought about how in college 10 pm meant getting dressed, did up and "getting my drink on" before heading to the local club. There I would dance, play pool, talk with friends, and not leave until one in the morning. Afterward, my friends and I would either go to a party in town/or in the country, or we would head to Denny's and spend the night talking.
Looking at the two different times in my life, I am much happier cleaning my litter box on a Saturday night. Those two girls are the best! I never thought about being a mother when I was younger, but now, I don't see how my life could be any different or better.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
MORE!
I've been thinking a lot about grandparents lately. Maybe because Grandma is supposed to come visit in a few weeks, and Nana & Pawpaw are coming in August (or at least that is DaddyA and my plans for them.) But for whatever reason, grandparents are on my mind.
I, unfortunately, lost all of my grandparents somewhat early in my adult-life. I say "somewhat" because I don't know if I was an adult at that point or just pretending. Anyway, I digress. Let me begin with my Grandma (Mom's mom.) She was diagnosed with Alzheimer's when I was in high school and died the day after my 21st birthday. And as horrible as this sounds, I'm happy that she died the day after instead of ON my birthday. As it was, the funeral was 4 days later and the night of the funeral my brother and his wife at the time took me out drinking since I was legal. Grandma was very crabby. Guess that's where my sister gets it. My best memory of her was going to visit by myself and staying a week or so. At night we were in the bathroom brushing our teeth and she takes her dentures out right in front of me then gums at me. That's the best way I can describe what happened, but it's lacking. I'm disappointed with my memories of Grandma simply because I can talk to some of my cousins and they have Wonderful memories. The difference was they lived in the same town as Grandma whereas my family lived 10 to 12 hours away and I would only see Grandma on Thanksgiving and Spring Breaks and maybe a trip in the Summer. Very much a bummer!
The other side Grandparents (Dad's parents) were 100% Finnish. From Finland. Come to live in America when my father was a young boy. My dad is the oldest of 5, and apparently parentage of all siblings is questionable. I know that Grandma was definitely my Grandma. But as I have grown up, family tends to talk to you as an adult when you are an adult, I think Grandma was married to my Dad's dad in Finland and then he died; she married someone else and had an aunt and then HE died; then she married "Grandpa" and had 3 more children and came to America. That's all conjecture on my part since I never was able to just come out and ask Grandma while she was alive, and I'm not that close to that side of the family to be able to ask one of my aunts. I digress...back to my memory: I remember going to visit my Grandpa (whether he was biological or not) and him making some Finnish dish. I took a taste and couldn't get it past my tongue. It was disgusting. Being the good girl I was/am? I excused myself post-haste and spit it over his deck into the forest that surrounded his house. That's all I remember of that side of Grandparents.
Kind of sad when I write it out like this. I want more! I want time with both sides of my heritage to sit at their feet and learn more about who they were as people and what experiences they had! Granted I know I will not have that opportunity this side of heaven, and I have accepted that, but it doesn't take away the yearning I do have. I also want more for my girls. I know that being distanced due to DaddyA's job does not foster a good relationship for my girls, but it is what it is. One would think that technology has helped enable my girls to know their Grandparents better than I knew mine, but I think they are still too young (5 & 1) to really be able to use the technology without help and sometimes there just isn't that much time in a day. I hope that the little time that we get to be back home (where DaddyA and I grew up) and the times that the Grandparents come visit us will be enough for the girls to get to know their ancestors before they too leave us. (Not that I am wishing either side to pass quickly, on the contrary I love both sides. I'm not just saying that either. Think I like his side more than my own actually.)
I guess what I am saying is I want more out of my girls relationships with their grandparents than what I was able to get out of mine. I don't want them to look back in 25 or 30 years and say "It sucked that Daddy's job kept us away from family and I never knew my Grandma/Grandpa/Nana/Papa." That's what I want: More!
I, unfortunately, lost all of my grandparents somewhat early in my adult-life. I say "somewhat" because I don't know if I was an adult at that point or just pretending. Anyway, I digress. Let me begin with my Grandma (Mom's mom.) She was diagnosed with Alzheimer's when I was in high school and died the day after my 21st birthday. And as horrible as this sounds, I'm happy that she died the day after instead of ON my birthday. As it was, the funeral was 4 days later and the night of the funeral my brother and his wife at the time took me out drinking since I was legal. Grandma was very crabby. Guess that's where my sister gets it. My best memory of her was going to visit by myself and staying a week or so. At night we were in the bathroom brushing our teeth and she takes her dentures out right in front of me then gums at me. That's the best way I can describe what happened, but it's lacking. I'm disappointed with my memories of Grandma simply because I can talk to some of my cousins and they have Wonderful memories. The difference was they lived in the same town as Grandma whereas my family lived 10 to 12 hours away and I would only see Grandma on Thanksgiving and Spring Breaks and maybe a trip in the Summer. Very much a bummer!
The other side Grandparents (Dad's parents) were 100% Finnish. From Finland. Come to live in America when my father was a young boy. My dad is the oldest of 5, and apparently parentage of all siblings is questionable. I know that Grandma was definitely my Grandma. But as I have grown up, family tends to talk to you as an adult when you are an adult, I think Grandma was married to my Dad's dad in Finland and then he died; she married someone else and had an aunt and then HE died; then she married "Grandpa" and had 3 more children and came to America. That's all conjecture on my part since I never was able to just come out and ask Grandma while she was alive, and I'm not that close to that side of the family to be able to ask one of my aunts. I digress...back to my memory: I remember going to visit my Grandpa (whether he was biological or not) and him making some Finnish dish. I took a taste and couldn't get it past my tongue. It was disgusting. Being the good girl I was/am? I excused myself post-haste and spit it over his deck into the forest that surrounded his house. That's all I remember of that side of Grandparents.
Kind of sad when I write it out like this. I want more! I want time with both sides of my heritage to sit at their feet and learn more about who they were as people and what experiences they had! Granted I know I will not have that opportunity this side of heaven, and I have accepted that, but it doesn't take away the yearning I do have. I also want more for my girls. I know that being distanced due to DaddyA's job does not foster a good relationship for my girls, but it is what it is. One would think that technology has helped enable my girls to know their Grandparents better than I knew mine, but I think they are still too young (5 & 1) to really be able to use the technology without help and sometimes there just isn't that much time in a day. I hope that the little time that we get to be back home (where DaddyA and I grew up) and the times that the Grandparents come visit us will be enough for the girls to get to know their ancestors before they too leave us. (Not that I am wishing either side to pass quickly, on the contrary I love both sides. I'm not just saying that either. Think I like his side more than my own actually.)
I guess what I am saying is I want more out of my girls relationships with their grandparents than what I was able to get out of mine. I don't want them to look back in 25 or 30 years and say "It sucked that Daddy's job kept us away from family and I never knew my Grandma/Grandpa/Nana/Papa." That's what I want: More!
Thursday, June 17, 2010
I'm Gonna Try Again
Apparently I started this blog over a year ago, and stopped over a year ago. Follow through is not my strong suit. I'm gonna try again. Summer is approaching. Actually school summer vacation will be here at noon tomorrow for my oldest. So we come to the beginning of something, maybe I should mark it as a beginning anew of this blog. Let me think of things to write about so I will be witty and all that for you, my reader/s. Nobody really reads this. My best friend did when I posted, but now, we stay up to date with Facebook.
That is something I have succumbed to. FACEBOOK. One word can be so evil. I can't begin to tell you how many hours I waste on that site. I will admit, the reason I joined was not to get in touch with my long lost friends I haven't seen in 15+ years, or meet my second cousin once removed. No the reason I joined was to play games! And I do. I have a farm, I Farkle, I answer questions on Family Feud. (You might think I have a thing for F's but no, I'm sure I do other things, but those are the ones that come to mind.) I need to stop, or at least pull myself away from that site more often.
I'll get off my box now and go do something in real life. Like buy kitty litter and make the cats happy with a clean potty!
MommaA
That is something I have succumbed to. FACEBOOK. One word can be so evil. I can't begin to tell you how many hours I waste on that site. I will admit, the reason I joined was not to get in touch with my long lost friends I haven't seen in 15+ years, or meet my second cousin once removed. No the reason I joined was to play games! And I do. I have a farm, I Farkle, I answer questions on Family Feud. (You might think I have a thing for F's but no, I'm sure I do other things, but those are the ones that come to mind.) I need to stop, or at least pull myself away from that site more often.
I'll get off my box now and go do something in real life. Like buy kitty litter and make the cats happy with a clean potty!
MommaA
Friday, April 24, 2009
Friday Fill in Part April 25
1. Apparently there's some sort of perfect BMI out there...um okay.
2. Today, tomorrow and Sunday are going to be sunny days.
3. 2009 has been full of changes so far.
4. College was college that was it.
5. For too long I've been afraid to be the skinny me.
6. I am not obsessed with chocolate; I am not!
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to chillin with the fam, tomorrow my plans include a fun run/walk with the girls and a friend (my idea) and Sunday, I want to enjoy life with the family but will probably be reduced to watching Nascar and taking a nap!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Wednesday, Wednesday
I could do a wordless Wednesday post, but I have stuff to say, so...I'll still give a picture at the end. Still waiting for DaddyA to get the insurance situation for LittleA taken care of. We have until Monday to get it to the Tricare office in order for her to be covered as of the first of next month. If it is after Monday, then it won't go into effect until June! So you can see that I have that just right in the front of my brain all the time. When I bring up the subject with DaddyA I think he thinks I am attacking him, when in fact, I am simply wanting to know what is going on with the situation on the ship. Somewhere deep down inside, I think DaddyA blames himself for where we are with the situation. I think he thinks he should have gotten on the ball earlier than he did. I agree, but I also know that he beats himself up about it every time I want to know the status of the situation so I try to let him know that I don't blame him. I don't like this. I don't have any control and it drives me bonkers!!
The girls and I haven't done anything today...I don't even think I have done housework. Wait! That's not true. I cleaned the toilet, bathroom sink and the tub, but that's not much in my opinion. It's all dreary and overcast here, so I have no motivation to do anything. I do want to make some chicken soup for dinner tonight, but at the same time we could have breakfast for dinner and that would be good too. PrincessA says breakfast, so I'll start that in about an hour so we can eat early. Got the girls down at about 830 last night which was nice. Granted LittleA didn't stay down for long, but I did have them both asleep at that time. PrincessA has been waking after being asleep for 30 minutes or so for the past 2 days. I talked to her about it this morning and she doesn't remember what she did when she was awake. (She just rocked with Daddy, but she says she doesn't remember.) Kind of makes me nervous since when she does wake she sounds like she's really scared and she doesn't really focus so I am pretty sure that she's sleepwalking. I mean, her eyes are open, but there's nobody awake. We'll see if she does it again tonight. If so I might mention it to the doctor we are going to see at the end of the month for her Kindergarten physical.
That's all I got. So here is my wordless part of today's post:
The girls and I haven't done anything today...I don't even think I have done housework. Wait! That's not true. I cleaned the toilet, bathroom sink and the tub, but that's not much in my opinion. It's all dreary and overcast here, so I have no motivation to do anything. I do want to make some chicken soup for dinner tonight, but at the same time we could have breakfast for dinner and that would be good too. PrincessA says breakfast, so I'll start that in about an hour so we can eat early. Got the girls down at about 830 last night which was nice. Granted LittleA didn't stay down for long, but I did have them both asleep at that time. PrincessA has been waking after being asleep for 30 minutes or so for the past 2 days. I talked to her about it this morning and she doesn't remember what she did when she was awake. (She just rocked with Daddy, but she says she doesn't remember.) Kind of makes me nervous since when she does wake she sounds like she's really scared and she doesn't really focus so I am pretty sure that she's sleepwalking. I mean, her eyes are open, but there's nobody awake. We'll see if she does it again tonight. If so I might mention it to the doctor we are going to see at the end of the month for her Kindergarten physical.
That's all I got. So here is my wordless part of today's post:
Monday, April 13, 2009
Easter Weekend
Our Easter weekend was good. DaddyA was off on Friday which really messed with my brain that evening because I kept reminding myself that "Today is Friday." Didn't take a picture of the day on Friday because I was concerned with our poopy issue. I guess I will use the prescription stuff as my daily picture. Saturday was very overcast and had to force myself to take PrincessA to the mall and buy some white tights for church. The ones she had were too small. Saturday night we made Easter Tomb cookies and put them in the oven. Didn't know how they would turn out but thought the idea was cool enough to try.
Easter morning I awoke early in hopes we could arrive at church early and take pictures of the girls with the lillies at the front of the sanctuary. I worked on the eggs for dinner and got everyone dressed and still we were late to the service. Shesh! I can't win for trying. After church was over we did take the girls back to the sanctuary and took pictures quickly so we could come home.
PrincessA
LittleA
The Girls
Now we have another week with DaddyA before it'll be just us girls for a while.
Easter morning I awoke early in hopes we could arrive at church early and take pictures of the girls with the lillies at the front of the sanctuary. I worked on the eggs for dinner and got everyone dressed and still we were late to the service. Shesh! I can't win for trying. After church was over we did take the girls back to the sanctuary and took pictures quickly so we could come home.
PrincessA
LittleA
The Girls
Now we have another week with DaddyA before it'll be just us girls for a while.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
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